At Twenty-Three

At 23, there's a lot of things going on in my head. And sometimes I get a little (or not-so-little), frustrated. I guess, I am at a certain age when I am confused with living the serious adult life, or enjoying the care-free moments of my youth. Some days, I'd like to go out on adventures, you know, the kind of outdoor adventures I usually see on the trending list. I'd picture myself enjoying and chilling with the people I like to be with.

And then on some others days, I think like a grown-up woman with dreams, plans and ambitions. I think of how I can become a better person. I think of how I can make myself successful in the future. And there's this drive to push myself hard in order to achieve all that I have in mind.

And in some days, when I am too tired or too lazy to think, I just sit back. Basically waiting for what's going to happen next. Not much pressure, just going with flow...

Among the three, I like the second one the most. It gives me some sense of direction. So that is actually why I am quite baffled right now, I mean I'm not so certain on how begin. How should a 23-year old soul, with big dreams, start? In what way? Where?