CHANGE

"There's nothing constant in this world except change."
Indeed!

We can't stop things from changing, as much as we can't stop things from happening. There are instances in life when we feel so contented with something, but this doesn't guarantee us that it'll last forever.

Things have to change because they have to. We might not be able to see why for now, but in the end, the real meaning would reveal itself right before our very eyes.

As things change, I can't help but miss the way things used to be. It hurts to see things falling apart. I didn't thought that it'll go this far - this worse.

I always play safe. I used to believe that it would help. I guess this is enough evidence to prove that I am weak. I have to admit that I really am. I can't speak what's on my mind, I just scribble all my thoughts in piece of paper and then it's all over.

I am not a big fan of confrontations. I am scared to get hurt by the words they utter. I don't want to speak because I'm afraid that I might not be able to support and sustain it.

I am easily intimidated. The tone of your voice, or even the mere expression in your eyes could make me feel inferior.

I can't seem to understand why things have to reach this point. I am for peace, but life has its own way of giving me a taste of reality that chaos is part of existence.

It feels bad when you're placed in the middle of something when i fact, you are not really required to be there. I don't want to take sides, but what can I do?

Things are different now, but I still don't have enough courage to make them realize that it's for their own good. The intention is not to bring them down, but it could help them re-check their personalities and become better individuals. They can't be right all the time, we all commit mistakes.

I hope that things would soon be fine. Things change, and what's good about it is that worse scenarios do change too.

Legal!

Grown up!

Yesterday, September 10, 2010, marked a new journey for me. Life is indeed a challenge, a journey and most of all…a gift.

I am more than grateful for having been blessed with such a wonderful life, a life full of enchanting memories and priceless realizations.

Now that I have officially turned legal, a new set of challenges awaits me. I have to be properly geared in order for me to get through the obstacles. The things I’ve learned for the last 18 years would serve as my weapon as I enter this whole new world.

The pages of my childhood had run out, thus, I have to flip the page and start with another chapter. This new chapter will be filled with surprises, overflowed with memories and equipped with learning and discoveries. This would serve as my turning point from being a child to becoming a lady.

A lot is expected from me now. May God guide me as I take this challenge and as I start this new journey.

There’s no turning back. The game is on! 

My Mama!

I have written about my father already, now it's time for me to give credits to my mom.
My mother is such a loving, supportive and patient woman. She is a thoughtful mom as well. People have known her as a very kind-hearted person. Indeed! She really is. She's understanding and doesn't even get mad easily. I've learned how to become patient and understanding because of the examples she has set before us.

I am very blessed to have her as my mother. She never cease to show us her love. I could still remember the very first time she got really mad at me. Recalling that memory makes me guilty and yet it makes me laugh as well. Can you believe that I actually did let her chase after me? Yes, I really did! I was afraid that she's going to hit me, so I ran around the house as fast as I could. Unfortunately, she managed to catch up and I ended up being scolded. I have realized that we should never abuse the goodness shown to us by others.

I could even remember some instances when she covers up for me every time i did something. She helps us in asking permission from Papa, considering that Papa is really strict.

We have some things in common: COFFEE!!! Can't live without coffee. Wherever we go, we would always have 3-in-1 instant coffee in our bags. We both love PEACE. We just chose to remain silent to avoid further conflicts. FAITH. We are both firm believers. BE POSITIVE. We have the same positive outlook towards life. We consider problems as challenges and not additional burdens. These are among the things we have in common, or should I say, the things I learned and adopted from her.

Recently, I really appreciate what she's doing in preparation for my post-debut celebration. I am not expecting a lot, but it seems like she's really working on it. I wasn't able to contribute much, so far. All I did was gave her the list of guests. I am glad that she's putting so much effort for this event. I am truly grateful.

It is also good that we are able to have some time to talk about anything under the sun. I share a lot to her, even my love life. She knows my crushes, she could identify my suitors, and she even knows my type. I just feel comfortable sharing all these stuffs with her. She gives me pieces of advice, and she tells me how to handle things whenever it comes my way.

She would constantly remind me of how important it is to call on God every time. I owe a lot from my mom. She may have lapses sometimes but what matters is that she gives her best in everything she do. She is such a "mapag paraya" type of person. She sees to it that we have our cups full first before pouring something for herself.

I love you Mama!!! Thank you for everything!!!
:)